with love

2009-04-25T21:52:00.002+08:00

No man is the same after an agony;
He is either better or worse,
and the agony of a man's experience is nearly always the first thing
that opens his mind to understand the need of redemption
worked out by Jesus Christ. At the back of the wall of the world,
stands God with His arms outstretched,
and every man driven there is driven into the arms of God.
The cross of Jesus is the supreme evidence of the love of God.

-Oswald Chambers

2009-04-23T17:06:00.003+08:00

The sharp howling of the wind, never heard before in my life, that blew so hard last night really made me afraid. I thought rapture had come, and suddenly the names of many people who mean so much to me flashed in my head. Christians and non-Christians alike. But what really scared me was the thought of having my loved ones LEFT BEHIND. It reminded me of the movie that we watched at stephanie's house during the march hols. How it terrified me to think of what my non-believing friends would have to go through after we're taken up to be with our Lord. I lay in my bed and prayed hard, tears filled my eyes, this couldnt be it. It's not time, I told God. but the fact is He has already given Man so many chances, it's by our freewill that we choose to believe, His grace, mercy and love so abundant yet rejected by Man, how then can I tell God, no, it's not time. The only thing I can do now is really to live my life pleasing to Thee, to shine for Him and to tell others about Him. To have the courage to give out the tracts that have been seating in my bag, to be a witness. The rest is in God's hands and I can only trust Him. It isn't easy but I'll continue praying.

be watchful and pray

2009-04-10T22:43:00.003+08:00

You've done what nothing
and no one else could do.
and the song of my soul,
is "Lord, worthy are You."

It's only by blood(:

it's easter!
it's not about bunnys or eggs,
it's abt my risen Saviour!

2009-04-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

I msged liling this,

"As your days, your strength shall be in measure",
This the pledge to me He made(:

and she replied me,

"Look to the Lord and His strength, seek His face always",
This the pledge to Him I make(:

Indeed, I thank God for such a wonderful sis-in-Christ who never fails to remind me to look to God.

2009-04-09T20:12:00.003+08:00

Having gotten back PW and chinese A's results recently, I've just been thinking why exactly are people striving so hard to get that A? and when they do actually get that A, how short-lived their happiness is. yet the fact is no matter how stressful, no matter how tiring, we all work hard and put in much effort to achieve those A's we hope to see on our A level cert. Yes, everyone says study hard and get good grades so that you'll get a better job in the future, but after that what's next? it's all just a cycle, a system that society had forced us into. Stressful yet necessary for us to survive in today's globalised world. You got to have an advantage over others to stand out. unwilling at times, yet I know it's my duty as a student to study hard and to put in my best, to do everything as unto the Lord and the results I receive are blessings from Him. true, but how often in the midst of striving towards the goal of achieving A's that we neglect this MOST IMPORTANT Person in our life...

Woke up late on wed morning and rushed to school but I missed the train when i reached the MRT station but I guess God did have a purpose for it. Met gab on the way to school and we talked throughout our journey to school, she was mentioning how RJ always reminds them that they are full-time students and not full-time athletes, how they will not train so hard for competitions at the expense of their studies. and then it dawned on me today, if only christians would think of themselves as full-time servants of Christ and part-time students and yet recognise the importance of our studies. the way we spend our time would differ greatly. But yes, we're all not perfect and with the demanding education system, it's difficult to. Studying's important but looking to God and seeking His face is more important. Thinking of what counts for eternity matters more than temporal things. so then I question myself, how am I living my life? and what oughts to change?

my Saviour lives!

2009-03-29T19:57:00.004+08:00

I serve a risen Saviour, He's in the world today
I know that He is living, whatever men may say
I see His hand of mercy, I hear His voice of cheer
And just the time I need Him, He's always near.

He lives, He lives,
Christ Jesus lives today!
He walks with me and talks with me
along life's narrow way,
He lives, He lives,
salvation to impart,
You ask me how I know He lives?
He lives within my heart!

the stone wasn't rolled away for Jesus to come out but for the disciples to go in.
an obvious fact yet it never fails to amaze me.

((:

2009-03-26T19:54:00.003+08:00

today and tomorrow's e-learning day! soooo happy i get to stay at home! :DD
no doubt there's still quite a bit of hw to complete but at least I get to sleep in. and my blog's finally clickable again! haha. dunno what happened the last time. nothing much to blog about apart from the fact that i changed the blogskin. found many other nicer ones which i preferred but apparently there's smth wrong with the aligning of the posts of my blog. oh wells. this will do, it's COLOURFUL! that's why i like it! ((: and now, it's time to bathe!

at times i sure do wish i never had to grow up.

2009-02-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

It's been a year, you may say but somehow I still miss my sec 4 class. not that JC isn't fun, not that my friends aren't nice, not that i'm not enjoying school, it's just like that. School's been fun, filled with much laughter but i guess with much stress too. esp since it's a's this year. studying, that's what i've been doing. haha. I won't say there wasnt any stress in sec4 but somehow i enjoyed that year much more. perhaps cos everyone was really cherishing the times they had left with one another. 2 yrs in jc is probably too short but i wldnt want anymore! haha, 4 yrs of mugging day in, day out, i'll burn out in no time. oh wells. whatever it is, life has to go on. the childish, innocent days are gone. days where we played pranks on teachers as a class, where we prank call-ed each other claiming we're from a roti prata shop xD miss those days but they're gone with the wind. i'm growing older and i gotta admit it. it's goodbye to kiddy days and hello to adulthood. well not just yet but it'll be soon. 1 year 10 months flew by kinda quickly or so it seemed, changes yet again. but guess i'm adapting well(: strangely enough, i've been thinking abt my P6 teacher and class lately. hopefully we'll be able to meet up in march. at least mr woo hopes so. haha there's just so much on my mind, just some thoughts...

and yet again, life goes on.

2009-02-09T20:53:00.001+08:00

Undivided Heart

If I’m to be whom You desire all throughout my life,
A vessel unto honour, Lord, to Thee
And before Your throne to hear You say that I have
Done my part
Lord, I need an undivided heart

If I’m to live in truth and love to glorify Your name;
If for a living sacrifice to be.
And to share the joy, the grace and peace- Your
Spirit does impart;
Lord, I need an undivided heart

That I might know You, that I might serve You,
That I might worship You as King,
To see the Morning Star, to know how great You are
Lord, I need an undivided heart

(:

2009-02-04T21:30:00.004+08:00

I just gotta change the way I think but somehow I just can't get it off my mind.
cos probably in my heart, I long believed that everything's gone.
It there's and I can't deny it.

2009-02-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

much to accept,
much to learn,
much to believe.

love.
patience.
humility.

2009-01-27T00:48:00.002+08:00

Had our first L1 outing of the yr on friday! I really enjoyed myself being able to talk to my dear sec 4 friends again(: haha it was back to our childish selves, unleashed and let loose, esp ting en, jeremy and jiten. tsk tsk, they never change xD heh but i guess that's what makes our sec 4 days memorable and fun. the silly prank calls and jokes that never fail to relieve the stress O's caused us! hahaha. really miss those days, those friends..

mor, nat and ah peng :D

we're lacking a banana!

4L1(:

It was really a pity emmie couldn't join us, miss her much! and manda too, haha uncle actually sent me to go to her house to get her out, but her dad didnt allow :( hope to see you soon though! and i'm glad russell eventually joined us. I've learnt much from a simple episode as that (shall not mention what happened.) to consider others' feelings which i'm failing so terribly now. oh wells. friends can never be replaced for each one is different.

overwhelmed with a feeling of nostalgia.

listen

2009-01-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 43:1,4
Listen to the Lord who created you.. The one who formed you says, "Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are Mine.. you are precious to Me. You are honoured, and I love you."

All of us are of such value to God that He not only created us in His image and made each one of us unique, but His Spirit also works inside us. The God of the universe loves each one of us, you and me and wants us to live with Him now and forever. He promises that if you belong to Him, you will be His forever, and His love for you will never die. the only PERFECT and TRUE love one can ever receive(:

I'm so glad that Jesus loves me!

Happy Chinese New Year!

2009-01-26T22:29:00.004+08:00

祝大家新年快乐！(:
went to my aunt's house like around 11 today and stayed there till 5. haha cny is usually so boring for me, i've always got nothing to do and am often left in front of the tv to rot while everyone talks so much and plays mahjong/cards. hee but this year I was a lil bit more entertained, i'm an auntie! haha i got to carry my niece who's only 5 days old :D she's so adorable, I LOVE babies. haha sounds like i'm a paedophile but seriously, they're such cute lil things. okie not things, people. People that God created! :D my God is indeed awesome! a new lease of life truly brings much joy(: a pity she was sleeping most of the time, cldnt carry her much but i guess i shldnt expect a 5 days old baby to be awake most of the time eh? haha. It was funny how my cousins and i were mentioning that we cldnt believe we were that small :P and how much we've grown! I'm starting to feel old... =X heh. but the irony is that i'm the 4th youngest in my extended family. haha. so apart from carrying my niece, it was eat, drink and watch tv. hohoho put on weight? perhaps! anyway, that's about it! not doing anything much tmr. dinner with cousin from australia.

2008-12-19T19:34:00.002+08:00

hahha i'm so lazy to post.
gee.
it's dying.

=X

back from camp,
back from KL.
learnt much,
had fun.

:D

like that helped.. haha.

as usual every youth camp is AWESOME, and i'm reminded how much i gotta learn to live by faith.

2008-12-05T12:14:00.002+08:00

whoo hoo! haha it's been some time since i posted a proper post! xD so here it is!

Can't believe it next week's YC alr! :D I'm sooo excited! haha love camps, esp church camps. I'm sure i'll learn much and i sure do hope i can put into practice what I'll learn. hee so will be leaving for mersing on mon morn(: my parents are going in the advance party with Noah, leaving me behind :( haha i shall learn to be independent! the car doesnt have space anw. Yea and having spoken to people and reading blogs, I see many are equally excited as me :DD yay, to be among God's people for a week = love. like really, at my first YC i was so overwhelmed by all the love and care showed to me that I wanted to go again! Of course, the messages by Joe Reese that yr was one of the turning points in my life too(: yup and so i'm determined to shower the younger ones with love and care too! God is love, walk in love. But of course, i've to constantly remind myself it's not only towards God's people that i show such love but to one and all. no partiality!

yea and after YC, i'll be going to KL for a shopping spree! :D whee hee. fun fun. I'm gonna shop till I drop dead. hahahha. seriously i wonder after YC whether i'll have the energy to shop but i think it shouldnt be a problem xD

haha and i'm feeling rather hungry now so i shall go grab a bite..
bye.

2008-12-01T11:20:00.001+08:00

It's been an awesome week! :D

Indeed, taste and see that the Lord is good!!

2008-11-25T20:41:00.001+08:00

And so today was the first day of DVBS, it was alright, an experience(: I'll get better at it, I hope. Outing tomorrow! I'm excited :D haha. upload the pics next time..

2008-11-25T20:13:00.014+08:00

Fiona and Xinyi came over to makan and swim yesterday! :D haha like finallllyyy.. we've been talking about it since before promos which was like in sep?! And fiona cooked for us! a pity we only realised we havent taken a picture of it until 3/4 of the food was gone :P heh. She made spaghetti with many many different herbs, it's nice to me la, haha cos I can't even cook so ya. But it was funny, xinyi ate mostly the brocoli, i ate the button mushrooms and noodles and fi ate well, a bit of everything. She kept praising her cooking! haha and xinyi said her self-esteem is very high, that's true but it ain't a bad thing(: and so after looking through some photos AND my wardrobe, haha, we finally went down to swim! it was cooooold... but i'm sure we had fun! haha stuck in the pool during fumigation, it was a terrible experience =X Anyway, took some random shots before and after swimming, below!

the remainder of what fiona made for us :P

after lunch.. looking sleepy?

before going down for our swim! x)

back from swimming! after bath, looking refreshed! :D

and if you're wondering why xinyi's and my hair's flying, it's the fan's fault!

us :D

fifi and nat(:

our failed attempt! =X

another one! haha. short hands.

our star :D

act cute xD

That's about it! yay, we shall do that again next time! (:

2008-11-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

yay(: thanks to mel fong, I got the lyrics of the song that touched me a lot while helping out at the kindergarten guaduation. It's so nice! The words are so meaningful, to me(:

You are the Lord
In whom I can trust
You are the rock I can stand upon
Every step of the way, You take my hand and say
You will always be there right beside me
When I call on You i know You'll come to me

You are the Lord, in Whom I can trust
You are my fortress, you're my deliverer,
My shield, My Strength
For all of my days, I place my hope in Jesus
Who loved me with His life
The Rock of my Salvation
In Whom I can trust!

yes, indeed, when all else fails, I still have my Lord to trust and lean upon.

2008-11-13T09:50:00.002+08:00

Went back to BP yesterday evening for some bbq cum durian party, it's organised by the school for ex-bPians, super cool! :D It was nice returning to the old campus where we spent our sec 4 yrs, mugging for o's. haha. Seeing many familiar faces, smiling and saying hi to people I barely knew, talking to our ever so loving teachers.. I really felt happy(: It's like a whole extended family coming together, seeing friends we left behind when we moved on and all. It felt good to be back in BP! and mr tan welcomed us to march back to our new campus, the renovated one on 2 Jan. Haha the place where I spent my sec 1 and 2 years, only the place has changed pretty much. We'll be the last group to march there-the alumni. sounds so cool xD yay I'm looking forward!

It was a pity so few of L1 went back. There was only rooney, jiaxin, russell, mor and I! Mor and I were saying we're glad we had each other. If only emily and ah peng went back... haha it's okie. I'll be meeting them this fri as requested by ah peng! (: hoho. will update more then! bye!

BP, a place where hearts are linked(:

2008-11-12T10:46:00.001+08:00

and so my blog has been pretty dead recently.
nothing much to post, I guess.
or probably too much to think about.
oh wells.
till the next time,

bye.

2008-11-07T19:59:00.001+08:00

and our PW journey was officially over at 9.40am!

:D

whee~

2008-11-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

hee yesterday I went to church to help out with the K2 graduation night! (:
the kids are simply ADORABLE! honestly, I think I was born with some strong attraction to lil children that are so super cute, they can simply brighten your day by flashing you one of their cheeky smiles :D loves! yes and I got to see jia yi and jia le! times flies, they're all getting older and so am I. ha. J2, can't believe it. that's what I'll be next yr. going through what the JC2's have gone through this yr. and A's that they're sitting for now will come in no time. wahaha. and I shall stop stressing myself out. to all the J2's out there, press on!

Anyway, the kids sang a really nice song- In whom I trust. They sang so beautifully, I was touched. I was telling min, at their age everything is nothing but a song but when they grow up, they'll realise the meaning of the words. oh, how much it would mean to them. and I pray that even as these children graduate from bethesda kindergarten amk, that someday they'll look back and rmb those songs they sang. that they once learn about a God in whom they can trust.

I want the lyrics to that song! Anybody have, send me k? (:

2008-11-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

God is not looking for the perfect host,
He's after an open heart,
the open home.

Will you allow Him to come into your heart today?

A sparkling diamond of rarest beauty and untold worth,
that's what I wanna be,
for my Lord.

2008-11-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

Heaven is a wonderful place
filled with glory and grace
I wanna see my Saviour's face
Heaven is a wonderful place

(:

and suddenly while hearing the speaker speak today, I truly felt the most beautiful people to me are godly, spiritual people. To see the beauty of the Lord shining forth through them just puts a smile to my face and really gives me a sense of joy and peace within.

I love my Lord!

2008-10-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

haha I only like this picture so this shall be the ONE and ONLY one i'll post from the BBQ. Let's just say that day was not a nice day to take pictures of me =X

ugh. chinese, chinese. let's study chinese NOW!

2008-10-24T17:12:00.002+08:00

There's just so much to learn in life.
so much to live.
so much to ponder upon.
so much to improve on.
and sometimes we just can't understand
why certain things happen.
but at the end of it all,
we know for sure that
God is in control.

There's much I need to change about myself.
I need to learn to love others, to do more for them.
To show them that I have a loving Saviour.

happy birthday, me (:

2008-10-13T21:24:00.040+08:00

Haha ever heard of people celebrating their birthday over 3 days?? well i did :D my weekend was simply AWESOME. all smiles((: surprises. presents. but most importantly, love. truly felt the warmth when I was with my friends. it spells nth but family. the love of God that binds us all together(: I've been blessed with such wonderful friends, I couldn't ask God for more. touched, beyond words.

10 Oct, Friday

Went for dinner with my family to celebrate daddy's birthday. Spent some quality time with my family(: nice.

daddy and me.

mummy and me.

kor kor and me.

me.

haha dont ask me where's my younger brother! he refused to take a picture with me. camera shy.

11 Oct, Saturday

what happened on that day is a SECRET xD

12 Oct, Sunday

SURPRISE! :D haha that's what it was. I'll upload the video if possible (if i get my hands on it xD) haha it's indescribable.

mor and me.

di and matt.

haha pretty much in their own world xD

find me! x)

jie and me.

the guys and me. spot me! (:

girls! so fun :D

one more!

min and me.

jie and me.

us :D

All in all, I just wanna say I thoroughly enjoyed myself and I love all of you! We are ONE in the bond of love :D A BIG THANK YOU goes out to all who wished me happy birthday in one way or another((: 我是世界上最幸福的girl! haha apparently I can't type nu with the 2 dots above the u :p but yea you get the point.

daddy's bday

2008-10-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest daddy and me! :D

ECP

2008-10-03T20:31:00.004+08:00

whee! went to east coast to build sandcastles today! Thank God for the good weather that He blessed us with and the subsequent rain which cooled us down. it was fun :D haha post-promo activity. I'm so proud of my class and the things we built. We actually built a tank out of sand! *grins* would upload the pics as soon as i get them. haha but it would probably be on the class blog soon enough. There's actually many lessons that can be gleaned, even from a simple activity such as sandcastle building. the importance of planning, building a strong foundation, how in life we may not always succeed(the sandcastles collapsing) but we have to persevere and be patient(build it yet again (:). haha xinyi and i would definitely be able to understand that. what's with collapsing walls. That's what AJ hopes for us to learn at least. life skills. communication, leadership and all. And so it was a great time playing in the sand! serious playing :p so by the time the whole thing ended, we were starving! and so we proceeded for lunch (: supposedly a class outing. After lunch was more fun :D the rest decided to cycle while xinyi, clar and i decided to roller blade. It's been some time since i last did that and i throughly enjoyed myself today! it was tiring tho. xinyi and clar can testify to that. haha. yup and after that some of them went out while the rest of us went home. heh going home was quite an experience. It's been some time since I used the underpass at carpark C of ECP, i vaguely rmbed the way but somehow cldnt quite recall exactly and so i got lost! haha. blur me made a firm decision to learn to be independent and not call others. i randomly walked through the block of flats, following some people i saw in hope of getting out somehow. and so i managed to get out but i didn't know where i was! haha =X as amos said, only natalie can get lost in Singapore. but i walked and walked and managed to find my way to the tao nan school. I heaved a sigh of relief. haha. the rest of the journey was pretty much the same, being so unsure, checking it out and finding my way. and so i'm safe now at home! :D haha. a sense of achievement *laughs*

yes, and what's with hiccups i wonder. getting them so many times in a day. holding my breath doesn't seem to help, maybe i need someone to scare me :p ohh. i forgot jiten's method. suddenly, thought of it making me miss my sec school friends. this means.. it's time for a gathering! soon, i hope.

and now i shall go do PW. ha :(

2008-09-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

Our God is an awesome God! (:

Had singing practice for youth gospel night after SS today. Enjoyed myself very much tho I was rather tired. The words of the song instead of me was really beautiful. Indeed, instead of me, Christ gave Himself on Calvary.

Probably will blog the words some other time. haha.
gonna finish new moon :D exciting.

end of promos!

2008-09-25T22:42:00.005+08:00

WHEE! PROMOS OFFICIALLY ENDED AT 10:28AM YESTERDAY! :D

haha. yes, I'm H-A-P-P-Y! (:

Really wanna thank everyone who has encouraged me one way or another during that period of time and for all your prayers! But I specially wanna thank liling for all her ever so sweet and LONG msges, lisa for msging from aus while she was on hol, emmie for reminding me what a wonderful friend I have, mor mor for a lil note, jie for her many msges, matt for counting down with me, friend who keeps talking nonsense to me and has helped relieve the stress I felt, grace who reminded me she and jo were praying and for joanna who msg from london! I greatly appreciate it (: *from the bottom of my heart* yup but most of all, I thank God! I've so much to thank Him for! how He brought me through those long 4 days of exams. and of cos through all my preparation, how I knew He was always listening whenever I turned to Him when I was stress and He gave me the strength to go on. It was a really stressful period but God carried me through and for that I thank HIM(: I've learnt to depend on Him more! hee. and of cos, for all the wonderful friends He has blessed me with.

and so I'm finally relieved from work! well.. at least for a day and a half before I start on WR tmr. heh. but honestly, after exams you're suddenly so free you feel at a loss as to what to do. haha i didnt really do much ytd. came home after school (can you believe it? :p) got to read like 100 plus pages of NEW MOON! continuing today (: but I met xinyi, fiona, siow yun and joyce in the afternoon. went to cine to do smth silly xD haha. but it was fun tho! yup.

haha and me being a pig woke up at arnd 1140am today! I actually woke up at 8 plus but i thought it was too early to be up on a holiday so I went back to slp :D eek when I woke up, I realised I actually had lots of things to do. ALL the people's birthdays whom I missed due to exams.. so means i need to go out. but there isn't exactly enough time given the fact i gotta travel to ECP later. so how. I seriously dunno. I gotta plan my time now! and yes, of cos start spending more time with my Lord(: shall go think about workshop qns for SS now! and mummy suggests I read christian books which I think is a very good idea. haha. bye!

strangers and pilgrims on this earth,
this world is not my home.

stress

2008-09-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

study study study.

While studying today, my thoughts drifted..
Admist our busy and hectic schedules each day, many of us neglect those people who are closest to us, family and friends alike. Each day,when we go to school , we sit in front of our books. When we reach home, it's our books yet again. Hardly any time is spent talking to our family members especially as examinations approach. Phone calls and smses gradually decrease too. Sometimes I really wonder if studies are that important, why we gotta study so hard, or perhaps it's just learning to strike a balance? beats me. oh wells. it's just our responsiblity as students that we have to fulfil i guess...

Terrible day in school today, can't wait for promos AND pw to end. sighs.
I need to press on.

Kenga's pm is nice: a hand to hold and a heart to understand(:

promos

2008-09-11T22:03:00.001+08:00

gee can't wait for promos to be over.

mug mug mug.

=X

2008-08-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

I have chosen Him
To be my Lord and Saviour
My strength is found in Him
He is my everything
I tell you now, my friend
My life is given by Him
I give my soul, my life, my all
To Him, Jesus, my King

(:

honestly, I do miss those times.

meaningful words

2008-08-30T00:16:00.005+08:00

Before the throne of God above

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea
A great High Priest whose name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me
My name is graven on His hands
My name is written on His heart
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart
No tongue can bid me thence depart

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me

Behold Him there the risen Lamb
My perfect spotless righteousness
The great unchangeable I AM
The King of glory and of grace
One in Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased by His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God
With Christ my Savior and my God!

Somehow, last saturday when we sang this song at YP, the words really stood out to me. I've sung this songs so many times but on that day, it was different. It meant much more. so much more. *I'm only a sinner saved by grace*

Anyway, today was teacher's day celebration! :D well.. actually celebrations in AJ are fun, I do enjoy them quite a lot! so ya, but what really made my day was being back in BP, being with the bananas again :D The thought of going back to BP really excited me! since days ago? haha. guess I really miss my secondary school days, the less stressful, more fun days >< the teachers ever so caring and nice. truly commanding our respect. haha yea so let's just say I love my days in BPGHS esp my sec 4 yr and that I thoroughly enjoyed being back there today(:

So the bananas finally had a reunion! we had lunch together and after that emmie and ah peng came over to my house (: a pity mor had to leave earlier. well.. after promos! haha. but we sure did enjoy catching up and laughing over silly things xD and ah peng said smth like 你们在我心目中已经占了一个特别的地位，是别人无法取代的。and em went, "that's sweet." indeed, it is(: my friends for life.

2008-08-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

Do right

From the very start
Have purpose in your heart
To do what's right and never question why
Never count the cost though everything seems lost
The price for doing right is sometimes high

C: Do right till the stars fall
Do right till the last call
Do right when there's no one else to stand by you
Do right when you're all alone
Do right though it's never known
Do right since you love the Lord
Do right, do right

Right is always right and wrong is always wrong
And we must learn to separate the two
If you love the right
The Lord will give you light
So seek the right in everything you do

(Chorus)

Doing right is never easy, especially when our heart doesn't want to. It takes a lot of effort to do the right thing but when you finally do it, you feel a burden lifted off your shoulders. It need not be a painless process, but I've done the right thing in the eyes of God and for that, I rejoice(:
I gotta stay strong. Lord, please give me the strength to persevere. I pray. Make him strong.
In His time.

i'm sorry

2008-08-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

the hardest thing to do is not saying sorry but forgiving myself.

2008-08-11T19:07:00.001+08:00

only one life
twill soon will pass
and only what's done for Christ
shall last

(:

bymet outing!

2008-08-11T18:28:00.005+08:00

Whee! had BYMET outing yesterday! everyone came :D and we even brought our new friend, youmi, who's a korean serving the Lord in Cambodia along! so she came to celebrate liling's birthday too! haha whenever we get tgt we never fail to reminisce the times we had in Cambodia, even if it's just a fraction of the time we spend together that we do that. but with youmi there, we talked a lil more! she shared her experiences with us, talked about her life and all. nice person to talk to (: best thing: no communication barrier at all! heh. jordan and his diarrhoea food xD it was hilarious! we went to the makansutra to eat. had a sumptuous meal! it was yummy x) food food food. haha. we sang liling a birthday song there and we gave her our heart! hee. the people there were so nice! they heard us singing and they came over with ice kacang and cheese fries and said "for the birthday girl, happy birthday!" boy, were we all shocked. we thought the guys actually ordered it but they didnt. heh liling should feel so honoured eh? yup so after eating we decided to do some walking. We went to the esplanade, sightseeing for youmi (: it was rather empty which is kinda nice actually. though i'm not exactly used to it cos the past few times i went there it was crowded to the max. haha. took many many pics but too lazy to upload =X so we walked and talked and laughed. a pity lisa and amos had to leave us early. so i think it was abt 11 we left esplanade. went our separate ways. matt and i got to talk to youmi a lil more cos we sent her home. she's so cute! haha. i'm so glad we walked her back. then matt came home with me. and that marked the end of the day :D hmm maybe i forgot a lil detail.. i talked to ling-a-ling on the phone when i reached home! had a long long talk. it's been some time and i'm glad we did (:

haha if you had been too lazy to read all of the above, the main point i'm trying to bring across is: I HAD FUN! :D and i enjoyed catching up with the dear birthday girl.

a picture with the birthday girl :D

liling with "our heart" (:

BYMET'06

I love all of them! *BIG HUG*

class outing

2008-08-08T00:20:00.003+08:00

whee! i'm so excited! tmr we'll be having a class outing to sentosa after school :D it's been some time since we left school so early! plus the fact that we wont be having lessons. wahahah. i'm high! cos i'm so tired.. from doing pw. At times i really find it such a waste of time ><>

yay(: i'm looking forward to singing to the elderly this sat. i enjoyed the previous experience. seeing their smiles just warms my heart. hee. and after that, our bs leaders have decided that we go to minds cafe. it's quite a nice place but i'm afraid i'll be too busy to go. I hope i can make it! and in the night, it'll be RFG! :D haha that's sat for you. so on sun, i'll be attending morning worship and SS, after that it'll be out with the Kohs! :D yipee. my darling jiayi. haha. then it'll be to gospel then BYMET outing! xD and before i know it, sunday has come to an end. on mon, it's to the zoo! for SL training. the previous round was kinda fun(: yay.

with all the many activities planned, there's also the huge amount of homework waiting for me to complete.. shall type them out here to remind myself =X

oligopoly e-package
~~econs ans outline N99 qn(a)~~ and (b)
~~GP research~~
~~complete integration tutorial~~
complete genetic of bacteria and viruses tutorial
~~read bio lecture notes~~
my chem tutorialS!!
~~chi zuo ye~~

yea, that's all I have to complete! haha. looks lil but it's A LOT! not forgetting, I've got to start revising for promos! ahh.

and now it's bedtime! ((: gdnight people!

teenager

2008-08-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

teenager, teenager
do the hours you spend each day count for God?
for each hour you waste away
you will answer for some day
but for each hour you live for God
He will reward

pondered upon the lyrics of this song today and it really made me question myself, how do I spend my time everyday? what do i think of most of the time?

undoubtedly, as a student, most of my day is spent in school. studying, studying, studying. thinking about the amount of time i spend studying each day compared to the 20-30mins i spend with my Lord, i really wonder.. am I ready when the Lord comes for me? how am I going to account to Him for all that I've done? or even things i knew i shld have done but didnt do.

it's time i think.

3108

2008-07-31T21:41:00.000+08:00

I love my class! :D

death

2008-07-28T21:16:00.003+08:00

hmm and now on a more serious note..
came home later than usual from school today. when I reached home, mummy was preparing to go attend a funeral. Before I bathed, mummy and i suddenly started talking about death. Death is something most people fear, something they dread but for Christians, it is eternal bliss. Told mummy how nice it is when i think about death at times, thinking how when i first open my eyes in heaven, I'll be standing right before my God. What a joyous thought! but then again, thinking about how people on earth will be crying over the loss of a loved one, it just makes death seem so hostile. death, an occasion that can make people both happy and sad, at times feels like such an irony.

I vividly recall not too long ago, staring at the calendar on my desk in front of me. it was my grandma's birthday, my grandma whom I was once so close to. The day came and went just like any other, I just felt like something was missing. I couldnt bring myself to start on my work, i just sat there and thought to myself if it was really necessary that my grandma be put in a nursing home 'cos she's suffering from dementia. I didnt like it thinking about how much i've drifted from her. Told mummy about all these while we were talking and she told me it's really not easy on the caregiver which i totally agree, esp when they have families of their own to care for. sleepless nights, physical and mental fatigue.. it really isnt easy. Staring at the calendar that day i made up my mind, no matter what happens to my mum, i would never wanna put her in a nursing home. Ultimately, the question is: is it possible? is that what's best? well.. quite a while more and i shall wait patiently and see as God prepares me for the road that lies ahead of me.

friends

2008-07-28T21:06:00.005+08:00

nat and the forever chatty amanda! xD

bpians! ajcians! choir friends(: unite!

friends like them are indeed special hugs from God :D

What I learnt on Sunday at morning ministry: To treasure the friendship I have with my Lord (:

bestest friends(:

2008-07-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

best friends on earth, best friends above!

I love mor mor(: